I currently find myself struggling with the concept of 'right livelihood'. Or rather, I am *still* struggling with it. My working career thus far has seemed like one giant agony to endure after another, and that's considering that I *like* GIS and making maps, and the fact that I did meet some great friends along the way, not to mention my immanent fiance. I just can't deal with the office/corporate baggage that comes with it. I really wish I could - I would be much more successful if I could just play the game, and leave it at the office. But I just can't - I don't have those skills, I don't have that kind of 'climb the corporate ladder' ambition, nor do I want those kinds of responsibilities. Maybe that makes me..... hmm, many things, lol; but I can't help but feel in my heart that there is something else out there for me to do. The problem is *what*.
I am struggling (joyfully, mind you, but still struggling) with Living Earth Reptile Encounters. To make it work, how I want it to work. Others do it full time, so I think that I can too, but even still, getting the motivation to get the customers the way I would like to, is evading me.
I also want to work on my art, to see if I can sell some, take commissions, etc. There is also my work on healing modalities involving the Greek Asklepios/Hygeia healing temple. In fact, I'm even looking into acquiring some of the 3 species of European snake that were the objects of such veneration - but I fear that ophidiophobia will be too strong for customers to overcome. Animal assisted therapy, animal healing modalities (Reiki, accupressure, Tellington Touch, etc), and Animal Behaviorist are some things I am considering pursuing .... but I also admit to some nagging scepticism involving Reiki, that was reinforced by some pagan friends whose opinions I respect. But that musing/rant about the dichotomy of pagan 'skills' vs. New Age 'skills' I'll save for another post......
I've dreamt of running a pet store, but I do not have the capital to start one. Naturalist, environmental educator, museum or zoo jobs in my area are either nonexistent or they pay very poorly. With the price of gas at $3.99/gal., I need it to be more than a break even job.
I feel very much in a rut, frozen in place. A recent(ish) omen at a dragon ritual reinforces this. drawing from a dragon tarot deck, but not being too familiar with tarot myself, I depended upon the expert seer's interpretation as well as the information looked up later from the book that came with the deck. I drew the King of Coins. Abundance, Wealth and Sovereignty. A kingdom to be ruled. Sounds good, yes? But then there's this: the slowest moving of these cards - movement at a glacial pace, requiring patience. Followed by: But don't rest on your laurels - get moving w/new projects. Glacial pace, but get moving. Thanks, LOL. On the card the king dragon holds symbols of wealth and power. At the base of his tree there are great piles of treasure from ages past, meaning the attainment of one's objective.
I've never really been known for my patience. So I guess I have to get moving with those new projects, LOL!
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